However, I've always wanted to get to the bottom of these questions and in order to do so, it must take discipline on my part and a big part by God's grace. I must admit (this is not humility but a fact), that I'm a slow learner when it comes to academic. Im just pure lazy most of the time, wanting to fall asleep when I have to read heavy stuff, then forgetting what I study, easily distracted and a short span of focus. The same when I read the bible.
Today, I found a site and im excited that I can enroll for free bible study materials and a long distance study! I enrolled!
Its exciting for me because I've always wanted to study God's word but don't have the financial back-up and the non-permissible situation I am in now to fully pursue it. And yet the thought of going to a bible school intimidated me as I know there are many 'holiau' brains in bible schools!
Just want to say, thank You God for prayers answered. And now on my part...training of thoughts when the materials arrive. Oh mannnnn!