Footprints In The Sand

It's been a long while. Life has taken many turns. There's been good changes and yet, there's been deep hurts and disappointments. I am attempting to write but I find myself struggling. Some days, it feels like fear. Pain is so real. There is not one waking moment that I don't think about it. I've been at this spot 10 years ago. It's been 10 years. I hope I'll never have to face it again, I don't want to, I'm afraid I can't. But here I am. Heartbroken once more. I'm struggling to grasp all that this encompasses. A struggle to trust even with a past experience. I find no strength of my own...