Colleague A : Wei Jo, look at this bag. Nice or not?
Me : How much?
Colleague A : RM600, C bought at Changi Airport yesterday. Coach
Me : Wah! Kill me please...
Colleague A : Eh, you know F bought a Rolex for her husband at RM15K?
Me : Wat?! Walau ehhhhhh
I never understood the life and pleasures in a Gucci, LV, Prada, Tag....and the list is endless. I was just tumpang-ing my colleague's car back on monday while my kancil was at the workshop and I found out in her determination to earn more and reach to a certain level where she can splurge on a Tag. I told her I think with that kind of money, we can feed the hungry or the poor or put them into better use.
Here's an actual mail of what my manager says to motivate us to hit our numbers
"You want to wear Levi or Lady Like depends on this now...
You want to drive Kancil, or drive BMW, depends on this now...
You want to carry Sembodia, or Gucci also depends on this now… not later"
But it's sad that many are trapped in the life and meaning of materialism...especially more so in the sales line. I myself, too, have spend more compared to previously. But I dread this life...because I don't find meaning in a brand or a status. I work because I need this job...duhhhh. But $ itself does not motivate me. I need to find meaning, I'm trying to trust that I have a purpose at where I am now...TRYING. I so very much want to move on and pursue the desires of my heart but the realities of this world held me back.
Have you ever felt this way?
I envy those who can live their passion, especially if they live it for God. When I look at the faces of these people, I could see this certain shine in them, an unspeakable Joy. This, I yearn so much for. They are simple people, not trendy in fashion, does not own any LV or Gucci, drives a little car, never been for a holiday in a foreign country but they are rich in so many ways. Yea, the world may think they are not sucessful and does not own the luxuries of this life but so what? They have a Full Life. Will I ever find this life?
Is it because I don't have enough courage? or Faith? or Wisdom? or Trust?